music from the heart
music has been pulling at my heart strings again. i’ve been singing and playing ukulele + guitar since college. but always felt like somewhat of a closet singer, too shy to sing in front of a large audience. a lot of times strumming along to my favorite chords and writing music from the heart late at night after putting my little loves to bed. i guess now that my keiki are getting older, i’m giving myself permission to sing and dream again.
reflecting back on my musical journey … i have tried to put myself out there a handful of times through open mics, attending a songwriter festival, performing at a film premier + mana moon circles. and i even had my own recurring set at anna obriens back in the day, wow fun times!!
but life gets busy, and as we all know it - dreams are put on the back burner. i guess the important thing we have to remember is - don’t ever quit your day dream! after navigating through unknown seas and getting divorced, i sort of felt as if i was a beautiful songbird stuck in cage for many years.
i had to learn how to stand on my own two feet and take time to heal my heart. it was through those darkest moments that allowed me to let all the ever changing emotions come up and inspired me to channel that pain by writing songs from deep within my soul.
these days i am stronger, wiser, more independent and courageous! marching and singing to my own beat. they say if your dreams don’t scare you, you’re not dreaming big enough. well my dreams scare the fuck out of me! (pardon my language). i had this wild and crazy big dream to set up a music recording studio in my hale. slowly learn how to record all the original songs i’ve written over the years. self produce my very own aloha folk album on vinyl one day … and document the process along the way!
there’s still so much to learn and do. and this is only the beginning of my next chapter. but i owe it to my higher self and inner child to see where this journey leads. not to become a famous rockstar or anything, but merely to stay true to myself and enjoy the journey … sharing music from the heart that people can connect to and wanna listen to on repeat.
